Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Felicity [1]

Felicity. That's my name. If you have some spare time to check on the dictionary, then you can find that ‘felicity' means perfect happiness. But until now, I barely found a perfect happiness.

Six months ago, my fiancé left me for another woman who's now having his baby. Maybe they'll live happily ever after. Maybe they won't. I don't know. And I don't even bother to know.

Now, I can still feel the bitterness. I set up my mind to forget that bitterness, though I know I might never be able to forgive. And I'm getting tougher from day to day, knowing that this miserable feeling is because I'm still in love with that man. I can't say that 3 year as a short togetherness as we had so many both good and bad things together. It feels like we had known each other for ever. There's no single thing about him that I didn't know. Except the fact that he had had sex with another woman.


Another Sad Story

I read another tragic story in the education world: a student stabbed his professor and committed suicide. The police suspected this happened because of the rumor of scholarship termination by the faculty. The student was expected to graduate this year. (Summarized from what I read in detiknews.com)

Berita ini sangat menyedihkan bagi saya. Sayang sekali mahasiswa tersebut tidak memikirkan alternative lain dalam menanggapi rumor-yang belum tentu benar-ini. Saya tidak menggampangkan masalah uang, tapi tentu ada solusi lain untuk bisa menyelesaikan masalah keuangan tanpa harus berakhir seperti ini.

Apakah ini menunjukkan bahwa orang-orang pada zaman sekarang lebih mudah frustrasi dan hilang akal? Hhmm... it's not my area to comment about this, but most of all, I am feeling a great condolence for the student, for the professor, and for the education world. Wish this won't happen again ever in the future.